Well we have been in our new house for almost a week now and it still seems very surreal. Our life has changed vastly and still is changing! We are loving our new location and the closeness to some many things is so very nice. It still seems a little strange that we have this wonderful new house and so much space, although it is getting full already and we still have all the boxes at my in laws house to bring over too. We walked with Spencer to the spray park yesterday and that was a little sad because once we got there no one would play with him there was three sibling groups and they were all playing amongst their own family I felt sad for him so we played with him and then ended up leaving. It still tugs at my heart that I wasn't able to give him a little brother or sister and I hope with every fiber of my being that one day we will be able to give him a sibling one day someone will find us and ask us to adopt their child. It's amazing to me how the pain of losing that baby is still there and I am truly sad that it came with us to this new house. I really wish there was a way to erase this from my life and take this pain away forever. All I can do is keep trying and hoping to find a way to add to our little family!
I am trying to imagine what our life is going to be like this fall when we start running the daycare I have an idea of what I am in for but it seems strange that we won't be leaving home anymore for work and that I will get spend every day with my little man and that he will have some little friends to keep him busy. Well we are having a bbq today so I must finish my snack and finish getting ready.
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