Feeling Ho Hum

Yet another scope done and still no diagnosis! My frustration level is getting high and my energy is just not there. I had really hoped that this time we would get our answers but no so now what? How do I get better? DH is also very frustrated with his situation and it doesn't help. We need a break something to turn around in our lives. We need some good news, some hope, something to look forward too. I feel horrible for our poor Son as we are both sick and I try to put on a happy face for him and ignore my symptoms but sometimes I just can't.

I did finally talk to the Social Worker in Regina who handles international adoptions and he wrote to the ICAB for confirmation that the church will be accepted as a Christian Religion. Once we have that confirmation we can start to move forward with the process. I am trying to hold onto to hope that we will bring our child home one day and that the timing will be perfect for our lives. That at the end of all this frustration and illness we will find our greatest blessing. I hold onto the hope that is just a trial and will end.

I am also feeling there is a change on the horizon for me that life is changing. I am feeling the need for something more in my life. More fulfillment, more creativity and hoping that this will generate more income for my family. All I can say is life is hard right now but I know change is coming and I pray that it is for the better.

I have recently found a couple more adoption blogs that give me hope!


http://www.foreverbygrace.blogspot.com/

http://www.borninourheart.com/sophia_video.html

Both have given me hope and ideas for trying to help raise the funds for our adoption. Many blessings to you and your family.

The New Year and Finally Some Hope

I have to say that we came into this New Year with little hope that our dreams would come true. It has been a very tough fall and winter beginning with my miscarriage and the return of my mysterious and still undiagnosed digestive problems and then the worst came true and Kevin broke his leg on November 11th, 2011. This is his first fracture in 22 years and his worst one to date.  Thankfully directly following his fracture my digestive issues seemed to go silent which allowed me to do what was needed to care for my family during this time. Unfortunately on Jan 4th they returned with a vengeance and are continuing to behave in that manor. We are hoping to do a Colonoscopy in the near future and find the cause this time and a treatment that will hopefully put this in remission. The reason I share this with you is that we believe this is and has been our greatest test to date of our family. This is the hardest trial we have faced together and I pray that we will come out the other side all the stronger. I also hold the the hope that our greatest blessing will be waiting for us on the other side. Today a friend posted a link to a blog post written by a women who recently adopted a beautiful little girl her story is touching and filled with hope that our family will someday too be a family of 4. I want to share this story with all of you out there suffering from Secondary Infertility and who are also hoping to adopt. I am also going to share a few pictures from our family photo shoot. Well here's to a New Year filled with promise and the hope of something more. As of November last year we are officially on list for adoption in Saskatchewan!