New House...New Beginning?

Just last yesterday we brought over the last load to our new house with the exception of some items in the garage. I managed to unpack 3/4 of the kitchen set up Spencer's furniture and decide on the placement of ours which was a bit challenging as our new room is smaller than our old one. It still seem surreal that we have a new house and a new life really I keep waiting for something really bad to happen, aka flood, ceiling falling in etc. I think once we have made our first mortgage payment and been through our first storm it will settle in. We also had our appt this week with the orthopedic surgeon which told us that most likely Kevin's injury was a stress fracture so now we are off to Calgary for a consult with a Specialist for Kevin's bone disease, Osteo Genesis Imperfecta or Brittle bone disease. We are hoping that they will either assure us that everything is fine and this is normal for him or that it's the meds and we can adjust or change them. Spencer has been battling this mystery illness for last couple of weeks and just can't seem to completely kick this fever. As for myself my hip seems to be getting better much much better not sure what to attribute that to? Where are we at with the adoption, second child choice well we are still just waiting to get Kevin sorted out and then see what we want to do then. International adoption seems out of price range and a private adoption seems unlikely so that just leaves domestic but will that work for us? I like to think that some where out there a child needs us and will fit into our family but we will see. This is definitely a great lesson in patience for me and letting go. I have started thinking about selling off our baby stuff completely (as I have sold some of it) and just moving on with only having one but I just can't seem to let go yet. I really want to believe that some how we will have another baby in our house but it just doesn't seem likely. I have been feeling a little bit isolated lately and really wanting someone to connect with someone who has also stopped their treatments and chosen to move whether with just one or hoping for an adoption some day. I was part of an amazing infertility support site but now I don't really fit there anymore so I am looking for another support group but not trying very hard either. Life has just been very busy and overwhelming on it's own without dealing with this part of it right now so I am just putting it in the back of my mind to follow up on later. I recently played around with the idea of doing one last clomid with a donor cycle just because I will have a couple of months off but I just don't think I can go through that again no matter how much I want another child. Life has been very hard for us lately and it seems the tide maybe changing? Now that we finally have our new house and I am about to be done working at the hospital I wonder where all this change will take us? I am hoping for only good things to come and for us to feel a sense of peace and find sometime to relax and enjoy the last little bit of summer.