Life is feeling good but still empty.

Well we have been home for almost two weeks and things are starting to fall into a routine. I am really enjoying the time to be able to take care of my family and do some baking. I still feel a little sad like there is someone missing there is a little space that needs to be filled. I am also starting to part with some of Spencer's baby stuff and it tugs at my heart and makes me sad. The other day Spencer and I were talking about all his friends that have a babies and how we don't have a baby. Then I reminded him about his one friend that also doesn't have a baby and his parents went through fertility treatments to conceive him and they also suffered a miscarriage with their second, I explained that we tried really hard to have another baby and that the Doctor tried really hard to help us but that Mommy couldn't have another baby as was the same for his friend and he says to me "that we will have a baby!". I ask him how will we have another baby he replies " someone will just give us one!" That breaks my heart but part of me hopes he is right and somehow one day someone will contact us with an adoption situation. I hope that one day we will all heal and be able to move on past this one way or another but until then I struggle to find my way through all of this.